Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Where He Leadeth...

These last couple weeks have not been easy, in fact they have probably been the hardest 2 ½ weeks of my life, but I finally feel like I’m over the worst of it. Have my circumstances changed? In some ways, yes, in others, not at all; yet something has shifted. My heart, my perspective, my priorities…I know it’s maybe a little premature to go on about how much this trip has changed me, but I have been humbled deeply - I see and feel evidence of that daily - and I have come to a better understanding of what it means to trust. My dear friend, Patty, said it perfectly when she expressed that it is “such a growth experience to not rely on feelings but on His precious Word”. I am an emotional person and I have made the grave mistake of relying on my feelings time and time again. If I had continued to do that here, I would have crumbled, I would have lost hope, I would have let bitterness grow in my heart. The situation made it such that relying on His Word, His grace, His compassion, His sovereignty was imperative…it was all that I could do. I feel stronger and I feel that I have a deeper understanding of what it means, not only to trust, but to display the love of Christ in all circumstances because that is what I’m here to do. This is not about me. That’s maybe the biggest lesson of all.

As I’m writing, this song just came on (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bfy2JVLaCTw&feature=related). I’ve sang it in the past with another dear friend of mine, David, and I forgot how wonderful it is. My heart sings along now…gosh, I will miss leading God’s people in worship while I’m here.

Notable events from this last week? Well, we’ve had two new volunteers come; one from the States, one from the UK. The latter came on Friday; her name is Georgina and she likes Top Gear so we’ll get along just fine J. It’s been really great getting to know her actually and I’ve loved playing tour guide in Jinja.

I have a bad head cold that’s kept me from spending much time with the kids these last 4 days…arg.

I saw my first monkey.

Nam ate a bird. Let me explain...16 year old Nam (http://ekisainternational.blogspot.com/2011/08/beauty-in-broken.html) is very pregnant (it’s been any day now since I got here) and has been having the usual cravings; in this case, meat. So when a little sparrow-like bird flew into the outdoor kitchen, she utilized the moment. She caught this little bird, killed it, plucked it, roasted it, terrorized the mzungus (white people) by waving it in their faces (unfortunately I was in the shower and missed all this) before literally biting the head off and eating it in front of everyone. I am learning to expect anything here.



Tuesday, September 20, 2011

T.I.A. - This Is Africa

Power outages are common here. Random times, maybe 1 hour, maybe 12. There have been 5 or 6 power outages since coming and I have had two nights so far that have been carried out with candles, flashlights and the greatest invention of all, the headlamp. One such evening, the girls and I were all making dinner for ourselves in the kitchen. The stove runs on gas so, fortunately for us, a decent dinner can still be made. Jessica and Emily W had purchased a batch of Chapatti (like naan bread) from a street vendor and had used a large pot and an inch or so of oil to reheat and crisp them. This has been done before without incident but we believe that at some point, oil must have spilled down into the burner because what came next was rather dramatic, even by Africa standards. After allowing a pot of water to boil on the same burner, I made my way over to turn off the stove and make myself a lovely cup of hot chocolate. The stove is such that the flame increases as you turn towards off, and as it happened, in this case, a sudden increase of heat on already hot oil caused a rather significant combustion: a large flame coming off the burner and smaller, but still significant flames coming out from the knob I had just turned. As a side note, I believe the lack of light in the room made this event just that much more intense. I jumped back and simply stood there staring, whilst muttering repeatedly “oh my gosh, oh my gosh, oh my gosh”, waiting for someone to tell me what to do as given the nature of this place, I thought this may have happened at least once or twice before. But, fortunately for me, just as soon as it happened, Aaron, the night guard appeared from behind me and started whacking the flames with a dish towel while Emily stood yelling, “Aaron, turn off the gas, turn of the gas!”. Given the chaos of the moment, this did not register with Aaron and he instead grabbed a large bowl off the counter and threw sweet sugary high calorie milk into the flames and all over the floor. This did not extinguish the fire completely, but upon finally turning off the gas, the drama at last reached an end. What was left was a sticky mess, a lot of laughter and everyone relaying what was going through their heads at that fateful moment. Emily H coyly admitted to have thought nothing of the children and was in that instant quite ready to simply flee the house.

On Saturday afternoon, Becky, Rachel and I went to Bujagali Falls. Though not far, the road conditions make it a little risky on a Boda so we hired one of the Emily’s trusted drivers. We arrived in perfectly hot sunny weather and wandered around a bit taking pictures before accepting an “invitation” from a local Ugandan man to take the short boat tour around the river, a common tourist attraction. We agreed on 20 minutes for 35,000 shillings. The boats were rudimentary; wood, patched to the nines, made slightly more glamorous by the addition of a tarp canopy up on four wooden poles. We were asked to join a lively group of Libyan men in another boat that was taking off at the same time, but as we had already made a deal and I was already in the boat, we decided against it. There were three people in the boat besides us; the driver, our guide at the front and a young Ugandan boy whose sole purpose was to bail out the steady stream of water that was seeping in through the rudely sealed up cracks on the boat floor. And no, mom, we did not have life jackets. Our 20 minute boat ride turned into a 45 minute boat ride as we made a stop to shore and made the hike up to a view point that is also the location of the king’s son’s home, stopped at another point of shore to drop off a few beers to some random Greek men and took a quick jaunt through some very mild rapids all the while getting a running commentary including info on the birds, the country, the falls and the dam that’s currently being built a few miles downriver. I do love adventure but due to the fact that it was clear we were past the 20 minute mark and we had no clue what their intentions were, I was slightly relived to, at last, return to our starting point. No sooner had we touched ground that it became apparent that the intimidatingly dark clouds that had formed in the distance were heading straight our way so we decided to have lunch in the small outdoor café/bar near the shore that at least had a coned thatch roof for cover. The rains came slow at first but within the time it took to order, raindrops the size of marbles brought the earth to life as the dark red soil began to dance upon impact and small red rivers began carrying the soil down towards the river. The sky became dark, thunder rolled and the café became shelter for what seemed like a never ending stream of Ugandan men who seemed to prefer crowding around our small table and set of three low cushioned chairs than spreading out amongst the tables. We waited for what seemed like forever for our food to come and were forced to sit awkwardly amidst the towering crowd of people and even found ourselves shifting from time to time to avoid the leaks that were slowly forming as water leached its way through the thatch. We were optimistic in thinking it would pass by the time we had to make our way up to the car so when he called to say he was waiting we made a run for it. We ran as fast as we could, leaping to avoid patches of mud and small rivers and up a crudely made set of stone and earth steps up to the parking lot. I actually managed to stay rather clean as I was wearing shoes but as the girls were wearing flip-flops and found themselves slipping, they ran most of the way barefoot. We arrived in succession, throwing ourselves into our awaiting ride wet and invigorated. But we were not out of the woods yet. Due to the rain and its inevitable effect on the already bad road, Abdula, our driver, had us meet him earlier than scheduled and his fears were not without reason. We did make it home without incident due to his experience and diligence but not before pulling over to keep out of the way of a couple mid-sized buses that slid past us a little sideways down a particularly precarious inclined stretch of road. TIA…

P.S. If you want to call to say a quick hello or tell me to log onto Skype, or if there is an emergency (as long as it’s not between the hours of 1pm and 10:00pm, your time), you can call my cell at 00-256-777672407)



Sunday, September 18, 2011

Patience is a Virtue

Given the last line of my last post, what follows may come as a surprise. I would be lying if I said this last week and a half have been easy and I’ve been a fool to think it was going to be. My time here has successfully pointed out my pride, my insecurities, my pride, my impatience, my pride, my mistrust in God’s plan for my life, my selfishness and my pride. I think I actually thought I’d come here with all my experience with kids with special needs and my keener-like willingness to help out any way I can and they’d greet me at the door and hand me the keys to the place. It’s horribly self-centered, I recognise that, but how else do you explain that after only a couple days here I started to become disheartened by the fact that I wasn’t best friends with everyone and still just an average volunteer hanging out with the kids, not being asked to take on this or that. It’s been a crazy, stressful, difficult week for the girls due to circumstances and the continual, daily challenges that have arisen which, I suppose, hasn’t helped with the relational aspect of things either. I suppose part of me wants to justify my feelings and say I’m just yearning to take some of the load off their shoulders, but if I’m going to be completely honest with myself, I think I’ve gotten used to feeling like a key player within my job and my community and here, I am not...pride. This has all been compounded by the fact that this huge life changed has made me incredibly emotional so highs are high and lows are terribly low. I just flat out haven’t been myself since I got here which hasn’t helped with the loneliness, since feeling a sense of community essentially entails being known and I don’t yet feel as though people know me. I don’t know how many times I’ve repeated to myself, it’s only been 5 days, a week, not even two weeks and I’m embarrassed to say I have actually considered throwing in the towel in the midst of those low lows. Pitiful, pitiful me. J

It’s so easy to be grateful for the refinement my dear Jesus sees fit to put me through after the fact; during…not so much. I am grateful, though, because I can see a purpose in the hardship and it’s forcing me to seek Him, to lay my burdens at the cross, to pray with tenacity, because to sum it up, I have come face to horrible face with my weaknesses…and they are many. But this is just the absolute worst parts and there have been many wonderful moments and experiences throughout which I will begin to start writing about soon. And it has been getting better, slowly, but surely. I can’t say the funk doesn't and won’t return from time to time, but God is faithful and I can see a future where I feel at home and truly part of the family.

Two things to look forward to: we have two new volunteers this week and tomorrow I get to start organizing the medical cabinet. It’s a disaster and I’ve wanted to take that job on since I got here.

To my friends, thank you for your little notes and encouragements; I feel your love and it has blessed me indescribably.

A little teaser for the stories to come: Power outages, a small kitchen fire, torrential downpours, a leaky boat and some rather sketchy road conditions.


The resort we spent last Sunday afternoon at...just beautiful.


A rather distorted perspective, but you get the idea. I will post a tour soon as well.

Across the "road" from our house.